Sunday, February 21, 2010

I don't understand...

i don't understand how somebody so amazing, so charming and generous, can be so hurtful. at first i thought it went unnoticed and that he was clueless to the hearts he was breaking. but now he knows; he can't be so ignorant as to not!
how many tears must escape the clutches of those beautiful, hopeful eyes of the girls who enter his life?
he treats them all like princesses. like they are the perfect girl in the world for him. he tells her he doesn't want to lose her. he says he'll never hurt her. hands are held. texts are sent. smiles are shared. secrets are exchanged. trust is built. and after all that happens, then he remembers. then is when he tells her he'll be leaving. they both want him to leave and serve the Lord, but they also don't want the happy moments to end.
it ends.
the promise to remain friends fades away like the fog as the sun rises, with no trace to be remembered. some might keep the trinkets, the memories. others might burn them. either way, scars are made on that poor girl's heart; ones she was trying to avoid.
he moves on. same sad story, poor new girl. she thinks it won't happen to her. i wish i could have warned her, but who would listen? only the breeze as it takes my words away, and even then...
i don't understand how somebody so amazing, so charming and generous, can be so hurtful.

<3

2 comments:

  1. Well Kris,
    How I know your pain very well.
    This is my conclusion to the heart breaks of boys. They seem perfect in every way, they tell you everything you want to hear and do, but then you end up losing in the end. However, the a lesson is learned, the heart heals up and you cross that bridge again, and it may just fall down again. I think god puts boys in our lives at different times to learn a lesson and maybe for the guy to learn something. However that moment when you walk in the temple with the guy that told you everything you wanted to hear actually goes through with all those promises, that will be the day that every boy that hurt your heart will fade away! but face it most guys are dumb and dont really think, thats why their are women in their lives to teach them and to train ;)
    I love you and know how it feels trust me we can exchange stories :)
    Shanel

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  2. you have NO IDEA how much this correlates with something i've been thinking about lately from my own life. i think the one thing i really want to comment on, is that sometimes... there's nothing we can do (like you've said). But it's because that poor girl has to learn it for herself. The Lord has something in store for that girl to learn, and if this guys gotta be the one to teach her that lesson, that's what the Lord wants. no matter how hard you try to tell her, nothing will help. But you can take this experience and use it for your own good. The Lord had something for you to learn from your experience too.

    the way that guy treated you, and all the other girls (before he turned into a jerk) was the right way a girl should be treated! we've just gotta find guys that treat us like that all the time, without turning in to a jerk.

    it'll all be okay babe. i love you. boys are stupid. we don't really need 'em anyways. at least not now. lol

    love you!

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