According to you - Orianthi

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

According to you
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes, cuz I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
you're the boy who puts up with that.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I'm not hated. oh-- no--.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?

It's too bad you're making me decide.

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

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Hope comes back

just as i think that the only thing left to do is stop and give up, i realize how much he is trying to make this work and hope comes back...


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Wet and cold day

today i looked like a cold, drowned cat.
today he said i was beautiful.
that silly, sweet boy...


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Guess what.

today i really like you :) i had a really confusing/tough day or two this past week. i was frustrated with myself for thinking what i was thinking. i am SO glad i held back, though. friday i went on a wonderful/creative date with you. as we talked, i realized that maybe i do like you more than i thought i might or might not. you know? lol. yeah, i'm confusing to even myself.
today i really like you.
tonight we danced in the kitchen.
tomorrow i will be seeing you ;)


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Itching

it's unbearable at times. it's all over my body. it brought me to tears tonight for a bit. sometimes it creeps up and attacks just my arm or leg or foot or something. but then there are times when it just washes over me...like when you're playing in the ocean and a wave turns out to be much bigger than you thought, and it soaks you head to toe. everything is itching and nothing helps. the doctor gave me a pack of meds that might help eventually. i'm hoping and praying for it to stop. if not to stop me from screaming, but just to help Jacob breathe and not have to worry about me. he took me to the doctor and has been making sure i take all of my meds...i don't think there is anything else he can do besides hold me tight when i should stop itching for a bit. i warned him that i might get violent, though, if i have to go an extended period of time from answering the cries of my fair skin for it to be itched and relieved. he lets me itch, and helps sometimes, but only for so long. i'm so thankful for him and Camry for watching out for me. they're lifesavers. this too will pass, as everything does. it's just a matter of time...right?


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Butterflies

where are they?


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